童話故事

the final year of high school started without much incident. and yet i can’t help but feel unprepared for everything that we will face this year. university and scholarship applications left and right, deadlines, work, and the weight of this term weighs down on our shoulders. all the work we did last year is insignificant when compared to the weight that these few months carry. all those years of work have boiled down to this sprint for the finish line. finally. this is it.

but this is when i get my doubts. what if this….what if that? of course, usually, the answer would be, get over it, move on, and make up for the mistake. but this time, there really isn’t that chance. it’s not a do or do. it’s a do or die. i guess the pressure to keep performing is getting to me a bit haha.

i feel that i have missed out on some parts of life in general, so far. i am always longing for more, looking for things that aren’t there. ever since school started, i’ve been getting these moments of discomfort, maybe worrying about all the things that have to be done, that want to be done, that have been done. was it worth it? we’ll see.

and then i think about how this is the last year together. probably for everybody. unless people end up in the same university, which is possible. but basically, we all go our separate ways, do our own thing. some of us will probably stay in touch. but some will fall out of touch. where will we all be in ten, twenty, thirty years? it is something that i am looking forward to seeing. but there is apprehension at looking into the future, because as we all know, life doesn’t always go as smoothly as you’d like it to. most people see themselves living until a ripe old age (there are some exceptions, of course), but truth is a lot of people die way before that. taking a walk through a hospital is testament to that.

my mother met this lady who worked at bayview village. she was an old lady. her husband had passed away several years ago. thankfully she still had her two sons. then the older son fell ill, and spent some time in sunnybrook before passing away. no parent should ever have to see their child die before them. but it happens. and then, the younger son died suddenly in his sleep, despite leading a healthy lifestyle. and now she’s all alone. and now imagine that was you. because it could very well happen. not all stories have happy endings, as much as we’d like them to be. of course, we can always hope for the best though.

but then, we have to remember that we are not alone. and that seems to provide hope, for me, at least, to know that there are many thousands of people just as unsure and just as worried, and many people that have overcome that and been successful. seeing them succeed makes us feel that we too, can succeed as well. no matter what happens, you are never, and never will be, the only person going through it. there will be at least one other person on the earth who is suffering (or enjoying) the same experience that you are, and there are millions of people who have been through what you have, and come out a better person for it, so when right go wrong, just say a little prayer, get your money man, life goes on! (twistaa XD)

here’s to a great year, guys. it may be our last one in high school, but it feels just like any other year, and i bet it’s going to pass just like any other year too. we all have great futures ahead of us, and our lives are made up of only what we do with it, so it’s up to us to be who we are, and just rub off on people around us. i’m sure we’ll all look back at this time and laugh “hah that was nothing compared to what i’ve been through in the past decade”. here’s to a fairy tale ending for all of us!

here’s a nice song:

a love note scratched out on a slide, taken in a small south american town

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6 comments on “童話故事”

  1. …way to go child. Don’t start depressing us when there’s still sunshine.

  2. cute pic

    fairy tale ending? ahhh let’s hope 😛

    in the meantime- gambatte (lol we’re gonna need it)

  3. Love note? That barely even looks like a heart.

  4. dude that is clearly a heart

  5. Fairytale ending = shoujo ending = girl gets guy, guy gets girl…
    Otou-san watch me die before you do!

  6. yea i wasted all my deep discussion on megans post today lawl. MAYBE LATER SHALL WE DISCUSS THIS.


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